Job Interview

Keep a good thought or ten for me please. I leave for a job interview in a few minutes. I really like the facility that I'm interviewing at.

What the kitty has been up to

So teh kitty has been stressing and job hunting and all sorts of stuff. Someone asked me what I was doing to chill. I've been planning my next cross stitch project.My next project is going to be a staged piece. The canvas is one of my very plain but sturdy kahki denim dresses. Over each breast pocket will be a flameing dragon in reds and oranges. (roughly 20-30 hours of stitching each.)Between each button hole will be a tiny (less than an inch square) dragon in reds. (45 min of stitching each) total of 12 tiny dragons so call it 12 hours.On the back between the shoulders will be a purple dragon reclining on a bed of gold and emeralds. ( Estimated 45 to 50 hours of stitching )Each dragon is a stage in the finished piece, and I will be able to wear the dress between stages.Roughly 120 hours of stitching will go into this piece before it is complete and I have thoughts about putting spiral sun symbols scattered around the skirt but I'm not sure yet if I will add them or not.I have about half the floss I need for the front of the dress, and about a quarter of the needed floss for the back of the dress. Hopefully I can find a sale on DMC floss soon. I am picky about the floss I use for wearable art. DMC is the only floss I will use for clothing, it holds it's color. My cheap knockoff brands are just as lovely to use and just as pretty but they bleed like a stuck pig. I only use them for art that is going to be framed or laminated.

CEPT

More on the job stuff. I got two phone calls for interviews today. I have an interview on Friday at 1pm and an interview on Monday (the 23rd) at 2pm. Keep your fingers crossed folks both of these places are in the same national chain and both of them have really good reviews from folks who work there.

CEPT

I had a preliminary interview for a job today.It's at a place I would really enjoy working at; and the ADON liked my interview enough to bump my application and her notes of the interview to the DON's desk.The Don will be back in the office Monday. Please keep a thought or ten for me to get called back for a second interview and to get the job if it is actually the best job for me.Yes I'm open to the universe sending me a better job instead.

Healthy boundries

A post in a community I'm in sparked this.How to tell if a boundary is healthy or just mule-headed (this is for the person setting the boundaries anyone else is just gonna have to deal).1. the boundary is set to protect you. example You need a minimum of 8 hours of sleep and your boss asks you to pull a 20 hour shift. Saying no to the OT is a healthy boundary.2. The boundary doesn't ask anyone else to harm themselves. (now this one is one slime-balls will try to use.They will tell you that your boundary hurts them. tell them if they don't like it to leave.)example: You don't want sex, saying no protects you and doesn't hurt anyone. (regardless of the lies some people tell sex is not required of you) Now if someone is wanting sex all the time and you don't you will not have a relationship with them for long. But it is better to not have a relationship than to have one that damages you.3.Healthy boundaries are flexible. Your life is not static and unchanging so your boundaries shouldn't be either. If you change your mind about something it's ok and it doesn't mean you can't change your mind back later. (sex analogy again you can say yes and then due to flash backs ectra you can say no even if you are in the middle of sex. Just give your partner a break on this if you are in the middle of sex and change your mind be clear on saying stop and once your partner stops (which should be very quickly after you say stop)let them know if there is anything you can do intimacy wise.)4. Healthy boundaries help maintain and improve health. A boundary that says I'm hypoglycemic so need to eat something every x hours is designed to maintain health. A boundary that says I'm fat and ugly so shouldn't eat more than once a day is BS and needs to be changed (personal experience here folks I still struggle with this one a lot)5. Some people have serious trouble respecting other peoples boundaries. If you have folks like this around you it is better for you if they go away. (Most folks who don't have healthy boundaries have at least one person in their circle of friends who will fight with them about setting healthy boundaries (or in some cases any boundaries).6. when learning to set boundaries it is generally best if you can get advice from someone knowledgeable about weather or not a specific boundary is healthy or not. As a general rule anyone in the psychology field should have a good understanding of boundaries, and anyone who has been through a shitload of therapy to help learn good boundaries will also have a pretty good grasp of what is healthy and what isn't. I'd steer away from asking your circle of friends advice on boundaries when just learning to set them (see number 5 and remember that most slime-balls also have a good grasp of boundaries they just use it to their advantage).

For all wh...

For all who Know Motorcycle RidersI saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line.But, you didn't see me, put an extra $10.00 in the collection platelast Sunday.I saw you, pull your child closer when we passed each other on thesidewalk. But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall.I saw you, change your mind about going into the restaurant.But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money forthe hurricane relief.I saw you, roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by.But, you didn't see me, driving behind you when you flicked yourcigarette butt out the car window.I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children.But, you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys tothe homeless.I saw you, stare at my long hair. But, you didn't see me, and myfriends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love.I saw you, roll your eyes at our leather coats and gloves.But, you didn't see me, and my brothers donate our old coats andgloves to those that had none.I saw you, look in fright at my tattoos.But, you didn't see me, cry as my children where born and have theirname written over and in my heart.I saw you, change lanes while rushing off to go somewhere.But, you didn't see me, going home to be with my family.I saw you, complain about how loud and noisy our bikes can be.But, you didn't see me, when you were changing the CD and driftedinto my lane.I saw you, yelling at your kids in the car.But, you didn't see me, pat my child's hands, knowing he was safebehind me.I saw you, reading the newspaper or map as you drove down the road.But, you didn't see me, squeeze my wife's leg when she told me totake the next turn.I saw you, race down the road in the rain.But, you didn't see me, get soaked to the skin so my son could havethe car to go on his date.I saw you, run the yellow light just to save a few minutes of time.But, you didn't see me, trying to turn right.I saw you, cut me off because you needed to be in the lane I was in.But, you didn't see me, leave the road.I saw you, waiting impatiently for my friends to pass.But, you didn't see me. I wasn't there.I saw you, go home to your family. But, you didn't see me.Because, I died that day you cut me off.I was just a biker. A person with friends and a family.But, you didn't see me.Please repost this around in hopes that people will understand the bikercommunity .I hope you never loose someone that rides. Have a great week my friends.

core dump

so yesterday night we went and got puppy her strap for her glasses. she needed one to keep her glasses on during soccer. while out we realized that there was a new shoe store next door to wally world. so sinc edrkn and I both needed new shoes we went to see if we could get some. I found shoes that fit the very first pair I tried on. color me amazed and we bought two pair since the last pair I found that fit (back in september) is no longer made.then today was puppy's first game. teh kids had a blast and we don't even really know who won. I do have a major quibble with the orginizers though. for a game that had 3 feilds in play and 6 teams playing they had no first aid kits. I found this out when puppy got stepped on bad enough to need a band aid and an ice pack and there was no first aid supplies availible at all. needless to say I will be makeing sure my first aid kit is in teh van for future practices and games. I also emailed teh main orginizers and teh regional heads with a complaint about the lack of first aid gear.tired kitty

I PASSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

99 on the written and 100 on the skills!!Happy danceing kitty.***************edited to add*************I got an email with my results this afternoon after being told that I would have to wait untill Wed or Fri to get my results.

State Finished

i'm home from State. I think I passed (when I'm not hearing nasty tapes in the back of my head anyway). I find out for certian in 3 to 5 days and I get my certificate in the mail in 4 to 6 weeks. Kitty will likely be stressy untill offical notification of pass/fail status. Most of us keep second guessing Andara and Berry and things were stressy enough that the common memory pool is a bit jumbled so we can't just go watch the movie and see what happened.

Test Today

Please keep a thought or ten for me today that I maintain my calm and my knowledge of my path is clear to those testing my skill level.I know my stuff, I can and have done the skills many times. I just need to remember to actually tell the testers what I'm doing as I do it.~Andara & Berry

Wish List

I'm makeing a list of material stuff I want.Music by Golden Bough (preferably Cd format although I'm not gonna turn down a tape.)Tom Smith music Preferably a copy of his first two albums (before he redid hellraiser and heat of the blood)Anita Blake books one through 22 (yes I know soem of these arent' written yet)(I have Cerilian Sins) by Laurell K HamiltonKiss of Shadows (hard cover) by Laurell K HamiltonA Lick Of Frost by Laurell K Hamilton (due out October 2007 or Dec 2007 dependignon wich part of the site you look at)A new computer chair (i'm picky about this one though I have to test drive it)Gift Certificates to Decent Exposures, Oriental trading company, Dream Maker, and Bookmarkany books by Tamora Pierce set in the world of Tortall (actually anything else she's written as well but the Tortall books are my favorites)Native American musicCedar Resin IncenseRose oilRose candles (scented)so that's my current list of desires. as always russel stoveres coconut clusters will be well recieved. As will company and e-cards and notes.

Cept update

Kim came home. Her situation at home is still pretty poor and if folks can keep prayers/energy/ thoughts ect twords things working out for her I'd appreciate it. Drkn and I are considering the feasability of offering Kim a place to stay with us. So far it is not looking very feasible but we are still looking into if it can work.

Ya know it's time to stop studying when. . .

You dream about reading the book you've been studying from. Yup I was dreaming the CNA handbook and still see lots of the skills writeups whenever I close my eyes. So I'm taking a break today and will return to studies tommorow. Considering how full today is going to be I need to be takeing the 30 min of study time I'd have allotted mysel today for self care. 15 of those min are already used in meditation today and I feel much better for it.

CEPT: Runaway

I haven't talked about Leong and Nyet on here but they are the couple my folks sponsered to teh US 15 years ago. They consider my folks to be their parents and they are very traditionally Vietnameese.Loeng just called my dad; his youngest daughter has run away. I like Kim a lot, she's 15, pregnant, and was scared of her dad's reaction. (Loeng is very traditional.) The cops know where she is but won't tell Kim's folks where she is. They are frantic and are really scared that Kim will be hurt wherever she is.So can folks please send up good thoughts that Kim stay safe and that things work out the best possible way they can? I am not asking folks to pray for her to come home because I don't know enough about teh situation at home to know why she left in the first place.Xposted to callihanians (slightly different format)

I'm here

I'm alive and extreamly busy. I'm not updateing much due to time management issues. Four hours of class time a week spread over two days means I'm spending half of each Wed and Thurs out of the house. Combine that with tryign to keep the house clean, and study for State and well my time for internet is pretty low.So if you want more info on my life call me. I'm likely to be scarce online for awhile.

Back online kinda

I have a new computer and spotty online acsess so far. we will be experienceing technical difficulties for a while as we figure out teh new computer and the network. phone and in person are still most reliable ways of gettign ahold of me or the kids.please email me your contact info if you want me to have it. Nothing on my hard drive was recoverable for a reasonable price. (starting at 500 bucks and going up from there i dont' think so.)also if I emailed you the excel spreadsheet of my scorecard please email me a copy of it, I'm recreateign it from scratch.

ABEND

I am without a computer of my own for the foreseeable future. The hard drive in Drkn's and My computer died a nasty death yesterday. I don't know when it or the computer (if that is necessary) are being replaced.Anyone who wants to contact me reliably should do so by Phone, In Person, Or by Snail mail. I'm not sure how often I can borrow the Dragon's computer. I know I won't be keeping up here until Drkn and I have a computer again. Also unless I've specifically told you that I'm not speaking to you please assume any lack of contact form me is due to the fact that I don't have access to your information. Crystal hon I only had your numbers on my computer. (I'm not upset with you or anything and I'm sorry you were accidentally on a filter that made you uncomfortable.)This means the kids don't have access to email either so that will not work as a contact method for them.

Same to you

Calling me a fucking bitch in front of my nine year old child is really petty.Puppy told me that someone was calling me a fing b while they had her and her sister out shopping this weekend. She also seemed to think she would be in trouble for telilng me that this induvidual had taken them shopping at Victoria Secrets.I make sure people don't bad mouth Warin anywhere in the kids hearing or potential hearing, too bad I don't get the same respect from his household.

I have a room

it's even more or less clean. I can see teh floor and the walls and i can get to anyplace in teh room without tripping or banging my shins. I even vaccumed. Drkn and I spent a few hours today gettign teh room gone through and all teh clutter gotten rid of. I still have a few palces that need work but it is no longer an overwhelming task.next weekend we plan to tackle puppy's room (with puppy) after we go to my moms so sunday will probly be cleaning day.tomorrow drkn and I go look for dressers, his is trashed (has been for a few years actually but he kept trying to hold it together with nails and a hammer.) My dresser will become pooka's though it will still be in our room and I am looking for matching dressers for drkn and I. I also discovered that one of teh kitties has been peeing in the clean laundry while it is still in teh basket. I set down a basket and delt with a pooka five min later i discovered a puddle of pee in teh clean basket. So i had to re-run all teh laundry from that load.

Poem

I don't know who wrote this poem but I found it on a scrap of paper in a church after a friend of mine had been murdered. Several folks that I know are dealing with Death right now in one format or another. I offer the poem to you in hopes that it will bring you the solace it brought to me.Do not stand at my grave and weep,I am not there I do not sleepDo not stand at my grave and cry,I am not there I did not die.*******Edit to add the full poem that Kelshei found for me includeing the author*******Do not stand at my grave and weep.I am not there, I do not sleep.I am a thousand winds that blow.I am the diamond glint on snow.I am the sunlight on ripened grain.I am the gentle autumn rain.When you wake in the morning hush,I am the swift, uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circling flight.I am the soft starlight at night.Do not stand at my grave and weep.I am not there, I do not sleep.Do not stand at my grave and cry.I am not there, I did not die!Mary Frye (1932)

State

I go to State March 24th. I wish I had been able to get teh February slot but I'll take teh March one.I have to be onsite at 8am and I test from 8:30 am to 2:30 pm So keep a good thought for me on that day please. Between now and then I will be studing for between half an hour and an hour a day, and I wil be mediting and doing a ritual purification bath the night before. (As my instructor said nerves will sink ya so drop the stress.)Thank you to everyone who was keeping thoughts out that I'd get February and that I'd hear bakc soon. They sent me Email notification the written will probly follow shortly.

CEPT update

I don't know what date yet but they got the application and money order on Friday. Hoping like hell I get the February slot. So please keep those good thoughts that I get teh Feb slot, and I'll be posting as soon as I know what date I got.

CEPT

Heya folks we just got all our paperwork from the place we trained at. We are applying to take teh state certification exam. Please keep a prayer for us that we get the February slot. And lots of supportive energy on the day of test would be great as well. (test will either be on Feb 17 or March 24 I find out after they get my application and money order.)

life

Life is good.I got a bite of shrimp yesterday (on accident I thought the egg roll was the all veg one). Thankfully the daily allergy med I'm on reduced the reaction. My tongue, throat, and face swelled and itched for several hours but I never stopped breathing and I never got bad enough to have significant difficulty breathing. Got lots of errands done. Got to visit with mom. and am right now de-stressing after working on a difficult email.Good Thoughts being kept that emotions stay in check and things are worked out fairly would be nice. I know I'm having a difficult time keeping from feeling attacked.Pooka sees the lady form the health department tomorrow. (last Monday was me misreading my calender and thinking the 22nd was the 29th.) hopefully we will have more info on options for the pook at that time.Finding qualified child care for her is not easy. Especially finding child care for second or third shifts. So good thoughts that direction would be appreciated as well.

Pruneing

I've pruned my fiends page. Most of the journals dropped were dropped due to my stress levels rising more often than not if i read the journal. some were dropped because they dropped me first and I don't stay on pages where i don't think i'm welcome. Soem were dropped because tehy hadn't posted or commented in a long time. one person was dropped because of interpersonal shit between us. If you were dropped and would like to be put back on email me or comment and I'll decide. If you are one of the dropped due to lack of posting / comment i'll be happy to reinstate you. Any other reason and you'd have to convince Andara that we can read you without causeing problems. For soem forlks that would be easy, others good luck.

Blog for Choice

I'm one of those relitively rare animales, an anti abortion pro choicer. Yes I think abortions are horrible awful things, but I also belive they should be legal, safe , and easily availible. I firmly belive that life begins at conception, and all life is precious. I also belive that until the child is able to exist outside the womb it is a parisite. If a woman is put into the position of not being able to physically or mentally carry a pregnancy to term safely then she should have the option to abort the child. I've been in the position of not being allowed to choose when where or how I had sex, if I'd gotten pregnant then I would have died rather than carry my rapists baby to term. I've known girls who were raped by their fathers, and killed once the father discovered they were pregnant. (He was trying to hide the fact that he was rapeing them.) I am also a child whose mother went against a doctors reccomendation that she abort (pre Wade). I could have easily killed my mother, but she wanted me enough to refuse the abortion her Doctors wanted to give her.The issue of legal abortions is one where emotions get hot very easily. In an ideal world no abortions would be needed. Every pregnancy would be considered a blessing and every child would be wanted. We don't live in an ideal world.In our world females get raped, get pregnant when health issues can kill them, get pregnant when they can't feed the children they have, birth control fails, ect. . .In our world safe legal abortions are a nessacary evil, and they should remain safe, and legal as well as haveing costs reduced.

Cept

I have a friend who is in very bad headspace. The headspace is hurting everyone around my friend. I'm going to try to pull my friend out of the bad headspace, but I don't know that what I am going to do will work.Please keep a good thought or twelve for me that I make the situation better, since what I can think of will either work or blow up and splatter everyone with even more stress.Here's hopeing it will work.

New Icon

I got a new icon thanks to a new lj friend needing a distraction and me being willing to actually ask fo rsomething I was wanting.unique_the_same made this fro me from a bunch of squirrle pics I sent her. I had so many cute squirrles i wante dto turn into icons and not enough icon space, so when she offered to make icons for folks I asked her if she could do one for me. I think it turned out great. it might become my new default, have to ask folks in here about changeing the default.

Today is officially fired

Our neighbor just pulled a dead very large black cat out of her water cistern. And teh contractor bitch who called here to tell my neighbor about it sounded positively gleeful that she might have "found" our missing Kaelaes kitty.We aren't dealing well today. We are barely functional.

Sadness

The Kaelaes kitty went missing a few days before Cristmas. The puppy went to school afte rteh firs tand was talking about how much she misse dher kitty and asking folks if they had seen him. One of her classmates said something along the lines of "oh that's the cat I shot with my new BB gun on christmass morning."Since it's been almost 3 weeks since anyuone saw the Kaeleas Kitty we belive he has crossed the rainbow bridge.The puppy has requested a siameese for her next kitty. So if anyone knows of a female siamese kitten looking for a home please contact me. (yes Knoxville and Nashville areas are within our range of how far we will drive to pick one up.)

Multiplicity

I know I make this offer on an infrequent basis but if you have any questiond regardign multiplicity feel free to ask. I generally don't give sweeping generalizations so if you ask about multiplicity in general instead of my specific experience of it I may not have much useful to add. a few rules, 1) keep it polite. think about how you would take the phraseing of a question and such.2)for us integration = murder so we won't react well to people trying to force us to take that road. we are happy to dicuss why we fell this way just won't take attempts to talk us out of feeling this way well.3) if youi ask soemthing very personal we might ask for an email addie to send the response to.